It was really hard going through this will puppers and doggos and kitties surrounding me. My focus wasn’t just all over the place, it was nowhere to be found.
Oh hello. Didn’t mean to be so absent recently. Just been busy and tired a lot. Not sure if I’m tired because I’m busy, because I’m usually tired without doing anything anyway (which frustrates the hell out of me). This week, though, I don’t have to be so busy. Most of the errands to run in the last month have been run, and I’m quite content with it.
I’m enrolled to Spanish school, which will hopefully push through and have enough students for the batch, and getting better and better with biking. Still apprehensive to drive, though. I know myself and my temper much too well, and I don’t trust myself with a vehicle full of living beings, and surrounded by both living and nonliving beings. But! I’m a firm believer in educating oneself as much as one is capable, so I will learn. Just maybe, not right this minute. One baby step at a time, me. I still suck at habits, as you’re probably aware of now, since I am such a sporadic blogger of a person, and I have little to no discipline. I need help. Speaking of which, I really should review my Spanish before classes start.
So all the while, as I tried to get my shit together, the world was shitting all over the place. My memory sucks enough to not remember them all, but bombings in London, white supremacist (aka racist terrorists) rally in Charlottesville, ongoing discord in Syria, flooding in several parts in Asia and Houston due to a DEFINITELY NOT GLOBAL WARMING/CLIMATE CHANGE storm, and conflict, confusion and corruption here in the Philippines, among many other issues. Oh, North Korea and America having a pissing match, but what’s new lol.
I have no idea what I would do in such disasters, and I am immeasurably impressed by the resilience and determination of everyone going through the challenges in their lives. Those days can seem endless, as if they have to be faced alone. Trust me, they really don’t. And even if they are, you are strong, you are brave, you are tough, and you can do it. Sometimes that’s all you need to know, and hopefully would be enough. But in times when they’re not, don’t be afraid to reach out to someone, anyone who can support you. They might not always be the first shoulder you tap, but don’t give up. Humanity is built on good stuff. Have faith.
This wasn’t meant to be too sappy, still I hope that just in case you or anyone you know are going through steep hills, take a breath, have some water, then go again.
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