TMI Time: Menstruation.

Progress report: Had my exam, finished DA: I and Rise of the Tomb Raider, finally learned how to ride a bike properly (although I barely got away unscathed yesterday morning because people were being dumb), and slowly but damn surely improving my art. Pretty fucking accomplished right now! Next on the list is driving lessons and Spanish school. I really should get around to setting those up, but pesky phone calls are pesky. But among other things—and I forgot if I even mentioned it before—but I’m finally bleeding again!

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Nowhere to go but up.

I had a bit of a workout Tuesday morning, riding my bike laps up hills. My thighs didn’t hurt as much as they could, but that’s probably thanks to the smaller workouts I’ve done in the months previous. Sadly, I wasn’t able to part with my bed yesterday, and this morning was rainy. I’ll try again tonight, when there’s less cars and people, just because I really, really don’t like them. Yes, I do have plenty of time on my hands. I do try very hard to make it as productive as possible.

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Antonym for cease; descend; recede.

I made my family disappear.

I’m home alone for the first time in a while, and it’s nice to have the silence for company. I do have to answer the door at least once today, for sure, but other than that I’m free to pretend that nobody’s home.

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Smelling the roses.

Hello! How are you? I’m doing just fine, thanks for asking. Thankfully episode-free for the last few days, or… I mean I didn’t take note if there were. There probably was at least one, but I’m pretty sick of being sick so I just try to move past it. Here’s me trying to move past it!

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Pace yourself.

My left shoulder is complaining, there’s at least two pimples growing on my nose, and web-based sites are slow. Yay, it’s try-to-be-productive-Mon-day! This is an attempt to set in stone a few goals for the next couple of months. Granted, this blog isn’t made of stone, but I am incredibly stubborn, and this serve as motivation for my everlasting need to be right.

to a friend

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The things I have tried and tried to fight.


Façades and masks,

For they show the person you are for society

But not the person you are or should be.


Caves and shades,

They may be comfortable and safe,

Yet hide you from the sunlight and day.


Scars and bruises,

Which I shouldn’t fear,

They are lessons to learn from and hold dear.


Intense scrutiny,

Look too hard and miss the big picture,

Barely look at all and what do you even see?


Material and immaterial,

All the best things in life are free,

But creation has a certain goodness and beauty.


Unfinished business,

Though not without fear and hesitation,

One must have the courage of their convictions.


This was an attempt at poetry. I’ve always sucked at it. Happy Friday.

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No, it doesn’t mean Most Valuable Player. It stands for Mitral Valve Prolapse, a heart condition where a heart valve doesn’t close properly, but remains ajar, when the heart beats. It’s a pretty common condition, since it can be hereditary. In my case, it was contracted from a childhood of throat infections that weren’t treated well. Apparently, however, anything that suggests you’re not a perfectly fit human being also means you aren’t fit for employment, no matter how good you may be at the work.

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